Kiss Goodbye to Ana
Helping You Recover From Anorexia and/or Bulimia
Hi there and thank you for visiting my website. I just wanted to tell you a bit about myself so you know you’re not alone and there are people that can help, who understand.
My name is Kim Marshall. I’d always been known as a picky eater but didn’t feel I had any issues with food or eating until I became pregnant at the age of 25. I felt hunger like I’d never known before and put on 4 stone in weight by the end of the pregnancy. After my daughter was born, looking back I probably had a mild form of Post Natal Depression and combined with being overweight, I was seriously lacking in confidence and self esteem. I was desperate to lose the weight and embarked on a yo-
My focus on food, eating and my weight continued and then at 30 years old, I discovered my husband was having an affair. He appeared indifferent and moved 450 miles away within 24 hours, and I became a single mum. I couldn’t deal with the hurt and rejection that would threaten to tear me apart if I let it, and this is when anorexia entered my life.
Being in control made me feel good and with Ana by my side I felt invincible. However this feeling didn’t last and soon she became abusive, making me feel worthless, despising myself and my body. I became tortured by the voice in my head, by food, eating and strived for goals that would never lead to happiness. I felt like I was in the deepest darkest well with no chink of light shining through. Every time I tried to eat a little more I’d be consumed by guilt and shame and Ana would scream at me, and this led to a binge. Even more guilt, shame and screaming followed and I’d be desperate to get rid of the food I’d just eaten. I felt alone and desperate and considered suicide several times a day. Part of me wanted to get out of the well, but the other wanted to stay, as I wanted to stay safe and in control. I struggled to want to recover as I just thought it meant I’d be fat, and the thought of putting on weight terrified me.
Eventually I was admitted as an inpatient to an eating disorders centre and although during the 4 months there I learned to eat and restored weight, the voice in my head never ceased and when I was discharged I still felt the urge to return to old behaviours.
I was soon introduced to EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) which I used to transform my life by dealing with the root cause(s) of the eating disorder which changed the way I felt about myself. I used to feel fat, ugly, worthless, unlovable, second best to everyone else, like I didn’t belong, that I had to be perfect in order for people to like me. Now I see things so much differently after clearing the issues from my past. I now feel able to deal with my life and although I still have stressful times (I now have two teenage daughters so say no more) I know that I can handle what life throws at me. I’m much more confident, positive about myself and my life, and I’m happier. I’m finally relaxed about food, eating and my weight. And without wanting to sound cocky or anything, I think I’m a good person and I’m proud of who I am. I can also say I like myself and my body. I never ever thought I’d be able to say that!
So if I can do it, so can you! Let me help you, like I’ve helped my other clients. I remember thinking I could do it on my own and I’d do it differently tomorrow. But it is not easy and you need support. There is no better day than today. Let me help you break free AND feel good about it. Let me help you learn to live and love your life. Let me help you feel excited about your future! Get in touch now.